So, rather than having a 404 error when people click the link in the email, I’ve reactivated the deleted post and edited it with this note. The original message is rather profound, coming from a new place that I am just beginning to open, and you can read or listen to it here. Perhaps there are no mistakes after all!

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Blessings on your Becoming!

On the first day of 2012 Adamus Saint-Germain gave an inspiring and insightful message about the energies and potentials that are available to us in this amazing year. By special authorization of the Crimson Circle it is our honor to share this message with you at our home in Albuquerque.

There is no charge for this event, which will take place on Friday, February 3, at 7:00 PM. The evening will include a brief introduction of ourselves and of the Crimson Circle, a time for conscious breathing, Adamus’ message (just over an hour), and time for discussion.

Please click here to let us know you will attend and to request directions.

Adamus’ message is also available for purchase in the Crimson Circle Store, and here is the official description:

In the opening hours of the most anticipated year in human history, Adamus Saint-Germain offered his perspective, wisdom and insight about 2012. Adamus announced that 2012 is, more than anything, the Year of Deliverance.

In this session “deliverance” is defined as a release from old bonds, as well as the literal “delivery of energies and potentials at unprecedented levels.” Adamus says that this energy is like rocket fuel, and even like “magic” because, once received and accepted, it is extremely efficient at launching whatever a creator chooses.

Adamus compared this year to the story of Alice in Wonderland with its many metaphors and illusions, and how Truth will be so very important this year. In fact, whatever is false, distorted and twisted will be forced to the surface, for it must come back into balance.

Adamus also gave his perspective on several interesting topics, including the Mayan calendar, prophecies of Nostradamus, Planet X (Nibiru), weather patterns and potentials, crime rates, the New Earth, and the vital importance of absolute trust during this time of change.

The special message is highly recommended for anyone who wants to understand the energies and dynamics of 2012, without the drama and distractions of typical 2012 information. It provides guidance for personal, transformational experiences and creations in this energy-charged year.

Near the end of his message, Adamus declares:

“2012 is the year of deliverance, of release, of receiving. The year to make choices, the year to do what you’ve wanted to do, to do whatever you choose to be. There’s no waiting anymore. There’s no hiding yourself anymore. This is the year. It is the year of action. It is the year of movement.”

As certified Crimson Circle Advanced Studies teachers we have been authorized to freely share this amazing message from Adamus in group settings, and we would love for you to join us. We will also bring this message to you if you have a group that would enjoy it. Contact us for more details.

In this life-changing workshop you’ll learn the simple secrets to becoming your own True Love, and of becoming immune to the abuse, manipulation, and feeding of others. You’ll learn what love really is, and what it takes to finally create truly loving relationships with others.

• March 15-17, 2013 in Albuquerque, New Mexico

You’ll learn about energy stealing, about how we have all been taught to feed upon and manipulate the energy of others from the moment we were born, and about how that feeding is at the root of all violence, abuse, and dysfunctional relationships. More than anything, you will learn how to stop the cycle of abuse once and for all. You will learn how to meet your own needs from within yourself so that you don’t need to feed on others, and how, in doing that, you make it impossible for others to feed on you.

If you allow it, this workshop will open doors within you, within your consciousness, that have been closed for a very long time. It will change the very fabric of your life and you will never see the world, or yourself, the same way again.

This powerful three-day workshop uncovers the reasons behind verbal, physical, psychological, psychic and sexual abuse, and is appropriate for anyone whose life has been affected by any kind of abuse or relational dysfunction. It is also helpful for professional facilitators who work with these issues, and for anyone who wishes to understand interpersonal energy dynamics from a New Consciousness perspective.

The workshop experience includes six channeled (see What is Channeling) sessions with Tobias of The Crimson Council through Geoffrey Hoppe, plus a series of activities and discussions led by certified teachers John McCurdy and Mary Beth Shewan, all within a very safe space. Although the channeled messages are prerecorded on video, the energies of Tobias are always present in these workshops and the experience is just as palpably real as if it were a live presentation.

Tobias’ Sexual Energies School: Understanding Physical and Psychic Abuse is an Advanced Studies production of the Crimson Circle, and John and Mary Beth have been trained and certified to facilitate it in a very safe and effective way. More information about this workshop is available at these links:

• Tobias’ Sexual Energies School – The Crimson Circle’s description of this workshop
• It’s Not Really About Sex – An article by Geoffrey Hoppe, channeler for Tobias

You may also contact John and Mary Beth if you have questions, attend a free introductory evening (listed below), or read about John’s experience with this workshop (also below).

Registration

The cost for this life-changing workshop is USD $595, and registration is through the Crimson Circle Store. Click a link below for details about a specific class or to register:

• March 15-17, 2013 in Albuquerque, New Mexico

If you have specific questions, please feel free to contact us. If you are interested in organizing a class in your area, please let us know. We will travel just about anywhere if there are enough attendees.

Free Introductory Evenings

From time to time we offer a free introductory evening for those who are interested in this workshop and would like to know more about it. This evening includes the full first session from the workshop, along with an exercise in creating a safe space, discussion, and an opportunity to ask whatever questions you may have.

Upcoming free introductory evenings:

• [dates and locations to be announced]

Why We Offer This Workshop

I (John) have attended a lot of workshops in my life. Some of them have been very profound and life-changing experiences, some have been educational, and some, well, let’s just say that they didn’t live up to their promise. When Tobias first created the Sexual Energies School I knew right away that it was something I needed to do, but it took me more than a year–and two failed relationships and a very broken heart–before I was willing to spend that much money on learning to love myself.

As it happened, when things got so bad that I had nothing else to do and I could feel my soul begging me to take this class, I had no money. But there was a class coming to my area and I knew I needed to be there, so I made the decision to attend and informed the teachers of that intention. And, as always happens when you make an unequivocal decision from your heart, the money showed up just in time.

That workshop changed my life more profoundly and deeply than any other workshop I have ever attended, bar none. For the first time in my life I came to truly understand relationships and why they work or (more often) don’t work, and what I could do to bring truly healthy relationships into my life. I learned how we feed on each other’s energy, and how that destroys trust and intimacy in relationship. I learned how seduction and manipulation really work, and why we so often use them, or become the victim of them, without even realizing it.

Most of all I learned how to become my own True Love once and for all, and in that to finally end the cycles of abuse and feeding, of seduction and manipulation. I learned how to love myself first, not in an egotistical and greedy way, but in a way that nurtures me and stops my need to feed on others. I learned how to treat myself the way I would treat my dearest love, and in that I found my freedom.

From that place I’m much harder to seduce or manipulate, because I need nothing from anyone else. From that place it’s easier to be clear with people, because I no longer need to feed on them. And then they are unable to feed on me. From that place it’s easier to stand in my own truth, to let my light shine, because I am fed from within and have less need for the approval of others.

It took a while for all of that to integrate, and to become real for me. But it did, and one morning I woke up and realized that for the very first time in my life I was truly happy being alone. I realized that I would be happy for the rest of my life whether I ever had another relationship or not, and that I would never ever again struggle in a relationship, or allow myself to stay in a relationship that wasn’t both easy and fun. I don’t need to, because more and more I am in love with me.

At that point my life began to change in a new way. It began to smooth out, and I began to feel happier. Oh, all the same problems and challenges were still there, but they didn’t matter as much, and I was happy. And the funny thing about life is that it responds to who you are being, and so all of my life reflects that happiness more and more.

Then one day I opened an email and nearly fell out of my chair, for there on my computer screen was the face that I had been searching for, and longing for, since I was ten years old. I had thought I had imagined it. I had tried to apply that face to several other women along the way, but I always knew deep inside that it wasn’t them. They were old and dear friends from many lifetimes, but they weren’t her, and when I saw that photo I knew her instantly. A few days later Mary Beth and I were having dinner, and we’ve never looked back since.

Now, I cannot tell you that if you take this class you will magically find your soulmate. But then again I can, for what you will discover–what I discovered–is that your real soulmate is you. And when you fall in love with you, when you make yourself your own True Love, then you will attract people into your life who will reflect that back to you. But it will be different.

I would never have been able to get along with Mary Beth, and I probably would not even have recognized her, if I had not first found what I needed within myself. It was me that I had been searching for all my life, not her, and only after I came to terms with that and connected with myself was I able to attract her to me. And she too had gone through her own process of coming home to her.

So, this workshop is not magic, and what you make of it is completely up to you. I can tell you that it changes the lives of almost everyone who takes it, and certainly of everyone who is willing to open up to themselves. It changes who they are, and how they are in the world. I can often spot them, because they are the rare ones who are not feeding on everyone around them. They are the ones who take full ownership of their own lives, and who walk the world with a little extra light in their eyes and a little extra spring in their step.

Are you ready for that to be you?

Before my own workshop was complete it had changed my understanding of life so much that I knew I had to become a teacher, and it is my great honor to be able to present this profound material along with my beloved wife, Mary Beth, who is also a certified teacher for this material. We will be creating other workshops and classes of our own, but this material is so profound and so special that it is our honor to present it to you on behalf of the Crimson Circle.

Just before the service began I went to the restroom, and as I looked in my own eyes in the mirror I heard myself say, “This is for you, Brother John.”

Now, Brother John is an aspect of myself, another lifetime of mine, that I was reminded of a couple years ago. He lived some five hundred years ago as a brother in the Catholic Church in France, and he was a great orator and well loved by the people. But when he spoke out against some of the abuses in the church, the church he loved turned the people against him, and he went away and died soon after in shame.

For many lifetimes since I have been trying to find my voice again, and the courage to use it. When I visited France last October I felt my own energy so very strong in the halls and stones of the grand cathedral of Chartres, and I knew that it was time to bring Brother John home and that my upcoming talk at The Celebration was, for me, about reclaiming his voice and his courage. And yet it was a surprise to find myself looking in his eyes in the mirror on Sunday morning.

As I took my seat and the service began I suddenly knew what I had to do. This was to be Brother John’s talk, not John McCurdy’s talk, and I needed to let him speak. I needed to let him reclaim his own voice.

My first thought was, “No way! I can’t possibly get up in front of all these people and channel!” But I knew better than that, and I knew that it was now or never, so when my time came I stood up and allowed Brother John to tell my own story of shame, reunion, and transformation. It was my first time channeling before a live audience, and when I finished I knew that a profound integration had happened within me. And, though many of the people thanked me and told me that it had opened something up within them too, I owe the people of The Celebration a debt of gratitude for giving me the opportunity to reclaim another part of me.

The recording quality of Brother John’s talk is not great, and I don’t have time right now to manually transcribe it, but you can listen to it here. The introduction is by my good friend Ken Shaw, who was there five hundred years ago and was one of the few who stood by me in that time. Thank you Ken, and thank you to everyone at The Celebration!

It has indeed been a busy and amazing year, and through it all my soul and I have been coming closer and closer together. I’ve been allowing my soul to speak more and more, with forty four lessons now on our Creatorship 101 website, and more to come.

But for a few weeks now they hadn’t been coming, and I could tell that I needed to find a new place within me. That happens as one’s soul comes in closer, for suddenly the connection is different and you have to find it in a new place. It feels disconcerting, like you’ve lost the connection, but in reality you are connected more closely than ever.

So, a couple days ago I sat down with my recorder and breathed, and set aside any ideas of what topic we should address or even of what we would do with what came, and invited my soul to speak. The message that came surprised me. It was somehow different from past messages, deeper, and not at all what I expected. When I finished I knew it was the next Creatorship lesson, but also that it was more than that, and that it needed to be shared here as well.

And so without further ado, click here to read or listen to a very special message from my soul, and a call for reunion on behalf of your soul as well.

Happy New Year!

And now, welcome to our new website!

For some time the old site hasn’t really been working for us, and besides being way too hard to maintain, two separate blogs weren’t really working for what we envision for this website. We found that we weren’t using it anymore, as you may have noticed, so Mary Beth and I decided to recreate the site as a single unified blog that we both post on, and where we also have more space to talk about all the other exciting things we’re doing. We also needed a new look, because the old Mistylook theme, though soothing and comforting, also seemed a little too dreary for where we are going

The technical process of moving all of our content from a multi-site version of WordPress to a single-site version and integrating it into a brand new theme was a little daunting, and a few things still don’t work right yet, but as you can see the new site went live yesterday and we will be adding to it and refining it over the next few days.

We are gearing up for a very exciting new year, so do stay tuned!

I’ve been learning a lot lately about what it really means to “be present,”  especially as I’ve been working through the intense doubts and fears that have come up during the creation of my new website, www.Creatorship101.com.

To be in the present moment is one of the most profound and important concepts of modern spirituality, and it is absolutely necessary if you want to be a conscious creator. But what does it mean?

When I hear people talking about being present they’re usually talking about time, and about not thinking about the past or the future. But that is absurd, and it is quite impossible and impractical whether you are a human or an angel.

The following message came through the other day, and really summarizes what I have learned:

I am that I am.

I speak now as all that I am, as the human John, as my soul, as my divine self, as the integration of all that I am, as my body of consciousness. There is no longer separation, and I am that I am.

Dear creators,

There has been much talk over the last number of years about being in the present moment. It has become like a cliché in your New Age circles, a profound and wonderful concept that almost no one knows how to do.

We’d like you to consider that no one knows how to do it, because the concept itself is flawed. It speaks of time. The “present moment” is a part of time, and yet time does not exist outside of your human reality. Oh, but that does not mean that everything is happening at once, for it is not. Your future has not yet been written.

There are many potentials, potentials that those of you who are sensitive can tap into, but those potentials have not yet been chosen. Instead of time there is a sequence of experiences, and what is truly meant by coming into the present moment is really to come into the present experience.

Most humans spend almost their entire existence either fretting about their past experiences, or about their future potentials. It is a rare human who stops, and comes into the experience that he or she is having right now. It is a rare human who allows themselves to feel the sensations of their present experience.

Most of you are constantly running from your experience, trying to change it and fix it and stop it from happening because you don’t like it, trying to create a new experience that’s different. And somehow those new experiences never seem to get any better.

Dear friends, when you stop, and come into the experience you are having right now, when you stop trying to change it, or to make it different, and just have the experience that is present for you right now, ah, your life will change. Your experience will begin to change, and you will begin to discover the profound joy and beauty of life.

As long as you are running from your experience it follows you. It follows you through time, because on some level you chose that experience and until you allow yourself to have it you’re stuck with it. If you want it to change, then stop trying to change it, and instead take the time to feel it.

Whatever it is, if your body is in pain, if your heart is in pain, if you feel confused or afraid, if you don’t have enough money, if someone is being mean to you, just stop. Allow yourself to feel it. Allow yourself to feel the pain. Allow yourself to feel whatever is happening, and to just be with it. Give yourself a hug while you are in the experience. Be present with it, and then watch what happens.

Being present, being “in the moment,” really means having the experience that you are having, and allowing yourself to be in that experience.

We are complete.

In my last post I announced that I was writing a book, but not long after that I realized that what I was creating simply did not fit within the limitations of a book. For one thing it wasn’t ending after all, and there is still more material to come. And for another, as I transcribed and edited the channeled messages I realized that it just wasn’t the same to read them, and that the audio needed to be available too. So instead I turned it into a website, and it is now open at www.Creatorship101.com. Do check it out!

The other highlight of the past few months was that in March Mary Beth and I were married in Hawaii. We arrived on Kauai just in time for the tsunami from the earthquake in Japan, and spent our first night trying to sleep in our rental car on high ground. Thankfully there was very little damage, and the next morning we were able to return to our hotel.

The main reason we were in Hawaii was for a Crimson Circle Mystery School with Adamus Saint-Germain, and wow, what an experience that was! I still have very few words for it, except to say that it was transformation at so many levels. One thing Adamus talked about was the profound birthing energies that were triggered by the earthquake and carried around the world by the tsunami, and how we and so many others around the world are using those energies to rebirth ourselves and the entire planet.

Our very simple wedding was during a group excursion to an amazing and beautiful site on the north shore of Kauai, and was facilitated by Geoffrey and Linda Hoppe, and Norma Delaney and Garret Annofsky.

After the Mystery School we attended a Finding Your True Voice workshop with the amazing Hannibal Means, and that was the perfect cap to a most amazing and wonderful trip. We returned home exhausted after an overnight flight, but happy and fulfilled.

But first, it’s been a couple months since I’ve posted here, because at long last I’ve been busy writing a book! In fact it’s nearly complete, with only a chapter or two to go, and then a bunch of editing and learning how to publish it.

I’ve known for many years that I had some books inside me, but every time I sat down and tried to write them I felt like they all turned into mud, and what came out was just a bunch of dry and tedious mental bullshit. Every time I gave up in frustration, because I knew I wasn’t saying what I really wanted to say.

And then last October I learned how to channel my own soul, and everything changed! After a few messages that I posted here I asked my soul about the book on creating that I had been feeling inside me for several years, and my soul practically jumped up and down with excitement. “What are you waiting for? Let’s get started!” it cried inside of me.

And so, due to the magic of a digital voice recorder and software that can turn my voice into text, I discovered a whole new way to write and my book on creating will be available very soon. It’s not much like what I expected, and it’s not like any other book I know of about creating, but it will tell you everything you need to know about reclaiming your own divine creatorship and all that you are. I’ll post more about it here when it is ready.

In the meantime, here is a special Christmas message from my soul to yours:

I am that I am.

I am all that John is. I am his essence, and his soul. I speak to you, dear friends, from the fullness and the wholeness of all that John is.

And oh yes, I am excited about John’s new book, about our new book! For each of you, dear friends, are a creator, and this book will help you to discover that. This book will help you to discover all that you are, for you are so much more than you can even imagine.

Today is what you call the day of Christmas, the day of remembrance of the Christ. Oh, some of you who have seen through the distortions of Christianity have wondered why Christmas has become such a big deal. Some of you have wondered how a celebration of Christ’s birth can be turned into such a glamorous and commercial thing. But dear friends, we tell you that Christmas is a very, very meaningful celebration.

For the one called Jesus, or in truth the one called Yeshua, whom the church calls Jesus, though he did not come to save you from your sins as the church has taught, he did come to show you something new. He came to save you from the very concept of sin. He came to plant a seed that would set you free.

The man Yeshua was not the son of some far-off God in the sky, but he was and is the son of God. He called himself the Son of Man, for he was created by man. And you, dear friends, are God.

There was a group of humans who got together in the other realms long ago, several thousand years ago. It was a large group, and many of you were there. This group said, “It’s time for us, and for all of humanity, to begin to remember who we are.”

And so you took some of your own essence, some of your own consciousness, and you put it all together, and you created a new being. Many of you came to Earth at the appointed time, some in the area of Palestine and many around the world, to help hold the energy for this one. Then he was birthed to a woman named Mary, and you know the rest of the story, or at least some of it. Most of it was distorted by the church, but it doesn’t matter, dear friends.

It was you who created the churches. It was you who recognized the seed that was planted, and though you didn’t understand it and you distorted it, you knew it was something special. You created the church to hold that seed, to nurture it, to keep it alive and in the awareness of people until the time was come when it could germinate and begin to grow.

That time has come, dear friends. The Christ seed has sprouted. The Christ has returned to Earth! Oh, you will not find a man called Jesus, or Yeshua, walking the earth. Yeshua said, “The kingdom of heaven is inside of you,” and that is where you will find the Christ.

The Christ energy, dear friends, some call it the crystal energy, and it matters not; the Christ energy is your own divine essence. You see, you hid it away long, long ago, before you ever came to Earth. When you first left Home on this grand journey that you have been on, you took a part of you and hid it away in a cocoon, so to speak, in a place where it could not be touched, where it would always be safe, and where it could hold an energy for you and be sure you didn’t get lost in your journey. And now, dear friends, that part of you is waking up.

Oh, you thought it was you the human that needed to wake up. But no, dear friends, you the human has been doing just fine. It is your own spirit that is waking up; your own soul, in a way. And dear friends, that part of you wants to come home.

You thought that one day you would go home to it, but that’s not how it works. Your divine essence, dear friends, wants to come home to you, right here on Earth in your human body. For this is currently the only place in all of the universe where that reunion can happen.

Dear friends, can you imagine being a human here on Earth, and being all that you are at the same time? Can you imagine the conscious union of you, of your soul, of your spirit, of all your many lifetimes, of all of that you are, here in your body on Earth?

The time has come, dear friends, when that can be a reality, and it is becoming a reality for many of us. And that is the true message of Christmas. That is what the celebration of Christmas is all about.

The giving of gifts is meant to symbolize the gifts you have for yourself. It’s meant to symbolize the abundance that is available for you, and the joy. It is meant to symbolize the true return of the Christ within you. Are you ready for that, dear friends?

Oh, it is a grand time to be on Earth, for consciousness has risen to a point it has never before reached! Many of you think back, and feel back, to the times of Atlantis, of Lemuria, of other times in your past and other places where you lived lifetimes; you remember the good old days, when you think life was simpler, where you think that humanity was more advanced. But it wasn’t, dear friends.

Yes, there was a point in time where humanity was nearly as advanced as it is today. But you passed that point some years ago, dear friends, and modern humanity, the consciousness of modern humanity, has risen beyond anything that has ever been before. And it is now rising exponentially. The time has come, dear friends, for humans to reclaim their Christ, and for you to reclaim all that you are.

It’s already happening, dear friends. You’ve probably noticed the chaos on Earth right now, and the chaos in your own lives. Many of you have been frightened by the chaos, but we ask you to look beneath it. Look beneath the surface, for dear friends, the chaos you see is nothing more or less than the grandest change that has ever happened.

It’s a done deal, dear friends, for you have chosen it. Humanity has chosen change, and humanity has chosen to move to the next level. But all change brings chaos, and it doesn’t happen overnight. Although from our perspective, where we can see the whole history of humanity and of you as an angel, it seems like it is happening overnight!

This is the grandest time there has ever been to be on Earth, dear friends, and the most exciting. And within a very, very few years, within the next two or three years, you’re going to see the beginnings of something grand and new being birthed on Earth. It will take awhile for it to take hold, especially in the darker places of Earth. But it’s here, dear friends, and it’s available for you right now, or whenever you choose it.

As you enter your new year, do not be frightened of the chaos. Choose safety for yourself, and you will be safe. Do not try to get involved in the dramas around you. Do not concern yourself with the dramas of politics, and of all the battles going on around the earth.

Change is happening, dear friends, and the best thing you can do to facilitate that change is to come home to you, to find your own center, and to stand in that without judgment and without trying to fix or change anything. For that will create a beacon so bright that it will be seen around the earth, and it will shine a light into the dark places, and it will be a guide for those who do not yet understand what is happening. There is nothing to fix, dear friends, for everything is unfolding in divine perfection. Because that is what you have chosen.

This is the grandest time there has ever been to be alive! Celebrate it, dear friends. Celebrated it all! It has been a long and difficult journey since you first came to Earth, and even before that, since the time you first left home. But you have succeeded in your mission. We have all succeeded in our mission, beyond anyone’s wildest expectations!

And now, dear friends, it is time to celebrate, so we wish you a Merry Christmas and a joyful New Year!

We are complete.