This post was actually a new lesson on my Creatorship 101 website, but I posted it here by mistake. (The WordPress admin page looks the same on both sites…) When I realized my error I deleted it and posted it in the correct place, not realizing that it would still show up in the site’s RSS feed, and therefor in the email that some of you received this morning. Oops!
So, rather than having a 404 error when people click the link in the email, I’ve reactivated the deleted post and edited it with this note. The original message is rather profound, coming from a new place that I am just beginning to open, and you can read or listen to it here. Perhaps there are no mistakes after all!
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Do you wonder why some people leave you feeling drained?
Are you tired of being manipulated by others, or of finding yourself manipulating them?
Are you ready to end the cycles of manipulation and abuse in your life once and for all?
Would you like to experience ease and joy in your life?
Would you like to create relationships that really work?
In this life-changing workshop you’ll learn the simple secrets to becoming your own True Love, and of becoming immune to the abuse, manipulation, and feeding of others. You’ll learn what love really is, and what it takes to finally create truly loving relationships with others.
You’ll learn about energy stealing, about how we have all been taught to feed upon and manipulate the energy of others from the moment we were born, and about how that feeding is at the root of all violence, abuse, and dysfunctional relationships. More than anything, you will learn how to stop the cycle of abuse once and for all. You will learn how to meet your own needs from within yourself so that you don’t need to feed on others, and how, in doing that, you make it impossible for others to feed on you.
If you allow it, this workshop will open doors within you, within your consciousness, that have been closed for a very long time. It will change the very fabric of your life and you will never see the world, or yourself, the same way again.
This powerful three-day workshop uncovers the reasons behind verbal, physical, psychological, psychic and sexual abuse, and is appropriate for anyone whose life has been affected by any kind of abuse or relational dysfunction. It is also helpful for professional facilitators who work with these issues, and for anyone who wishes to understand interpersonal energy dynamics from a New Consciousness perspective.
The workshop experience includes six channeled (see What is Channeling) sessions with Tobias of The Crimson Council through Geoffrey Hoppe, plus a series of activities and discussions led by certified teachers John McCurdy and Mary Beth Shewan, all within a very safe space. Although the channeled messages are prerecorded on video, the energies of Tobias are always present in these workshops and the experience is just as palpably real as if it were a live presentation.
Tobias’ Sexual Energies School: Understanding Physicaland Psychic Abuse is an Advanced Studies production of the Crimson Circle, and John and Mary Beth have been trained and certified to facilitate it in a very safe and effective way. More information about this workshop is available at these links:
You may also contact John and Mary Beth if you have questions, attend a free introductory evening (listed below), or read about John’s experience with this workshop (also below).
Registration
The cost for this life-changing workshop is USD $595, and registration is through the Crimson Circle Store. Click a link below for details about a specific class or to register:
If you have specific questions, please feel free to contact us. If you are interested in organizing a class in your area, please let us know. We will travel just about anywhere if there are enough attendees.
Free Introductory Evenings
From time to time we offer a free introductory evening for those who are interested in this workshop and would like to know more about it. This evening includes the full first session from the workshop, along with an exercise in creating a safe space, discussion, and an opportunity to ask whatever questions you may have.
Upcoming free introductory evenings:
[dates and locations to be announced]
Why We Offer This Workshop
I (John) have attended a lot of workshops in my life. Some of them have been very profound and life-changing experiences, some have been educational, and some, well, let’s just say that they didn’t live up to their promise. When Tobias first created the Sexual Energies School I knew right away that it was something I needed to do, but it took me more than a year–and two failed relationships and a very broken heart–before I was willing to spend that much money on learning to love myself.
As it happened, when things got so bad that I had nothing else to do and I could feel my soul begging me to take this class, I had no money. But there was a class coming to my area and I knew I needed to be there, so I made the decision to attend and informed the teachers of that intention. And, as always happens when you make an unequivocal decision from your heart, the money showed up just in time.
That workshop changed my life more profoundly and deeply than any other workshop I have ever attended, bar none. For the first time in my life I came to truly understand relationships and why they work or (more often) don’t work, and what I could do to bring truly healthy relationships into my life. I learned how we feed on each other’s energy, and how that destroys trust and intimacy in relationship. I learned how seduction and manipulation really work, and why we so often use them, or become the victim of them, without even realizing it.
Most of all I learned how to become my own True Love once and for all, and in that to finally end the cycles of abuse and feeding, of seduction and manipulation. I learned how to love myself first, not in an egotistical and greedy way, but in a way that nurtures me and stops my need to feed on others. I learned how to treat myself the way I would treat my dearest love, and in that I found my freedom.
From that place I’m much harder to seduce or manipulate, because I need nothing from anyone else. From that place it’s easier to be clear with people, because I no longer need to feed on them. And then they are unable to feed on me. From that place it’s easier to stand in my own truth, to let my light shine, because I am fed from within and have less need for the approval of others.
It took a while for all of that to integrate, and to become real for me. But it did, and one morning I woke up and realized that for the very first time in my life I was truly happy being alone. I realized that I would be happy for the rest of my life whether I ever had another relationship or not, and that I would never ever again struggle in a relationship, or allow myself to stay in a relationship that wasn’t both easy and fun. I don’t need to, because more and more I am in love with me.
At that point my life began to change in a new way. It began to smooth out, and I began to feel happier. Oh, all the same problems and challenges were still there, but they didn’t matter as much, and I was happy. And the funny thing about life is that it responds to who you are being, and so all of my life reflects that happiness more and more.
Then one day I opened an email and nearly fell out of my chair, for there on my computer screen was the face that I had been searching for, and longing for, since I was ten years old. I had thought I had imagined it. I had tried to apply that face to several other women along the way, but I always knew deep inside that it wasn’t them. They were old and dear friends from many lifetimes, but they weren’t her, and when I saw that photo I knew her instantly. A few days later Mary Beth and I were having dinner, and we’ve never looked back since.
Now, I cannot tell you that if you take this class you will magically find your soulmate. But then again I can, for what you will discover–what I discovered–is that your real soulmate is you. And when you fall in love with you, when you make yourself your own True Love, then you will attract people into your life who will reflect that back to you. But it will be different.
I would never have been able to get along with Mary Beth, and I probably would not even have recognized her, if I had not first found what I needed within myself. It was me that I had been searching for all my life, not her, and only after I came to terms with that and connected with myself was I able to attract her to me. And she too had gone through her own process of coming home to her.
So, this workshop is not magic, and what you make of it is completely up to you. I can tell you that it changes the lives of almost everyone who takes it, and certainly of everyone who is willing to open up to themselves. It changes who they are, and how they are in the world. I can often spot them, because they are the rare ones who are not feeding on everyone around them. They are the ones who take full ownership of their own lives, and who walk the world with a little extra light in their eyes and a little extra spring in their step.
Are you ready for that to be you?
Before my own workshop was complete it had changed my understanding of life so much that I knew I had to become a teacher, and it is my great honor to be able to present this profound material along with my beloved wife, Mary Beth, who is also a certified teacher for this material. We will be creating other workshops and classes of our own, but this material is so profound and so special that it is our honor to present it to you on behalf of the Crimson Circle.
On New Year’s day I had the honor of speaking to The Celebration, a wonderful church in Santa Fe, New Mexico, that I was involved with for many years. I knew as soon as I learned that I would be speaking on the first day of 2012 that the title of my talk was Transformation, but when the morning came I still didn’t know what I was going to say. A million profound things had gone through my mind, but none of them were coalescing into a coherent twenty minute talk and I was getting worried.
Just before the service began I went to the restroom, and as I looked in my own eyes in the mirror I heard myself say, “This is for you, Brother John.”
Now, Brother John is an aspect of myself, another lifetime of mine, that I was reminded of a couple years ago. He lived some five hundred years ago as a brother in the Catholic Church in France, and he was a great orator and well loved by the people. But when he spoke out against some of the abuses in the church, the church he loved turned the people against him, and he went away and died soon after in shame.
For many lifetimes since I have been trying to find my voice again, and the courage to use it. When I visited France last October I felt my own energy so very strong in the halls and stones of the grand cathedral of Chartres, and I knew that it was time to bring Brother John home and that my upcoming talk at The Celebration was, for me, about reclaiming his voice and his courage. And yet it was a surprise to find myself looking in his eyes in the mirror on Sunday morning.
As I took my seat and the service began I suddenly knew what I had to do. This was to be Brother John’s talk, not John McCurdy’s talk, and I needed to let him speak. I needed to let him reclaim his own voice.
My first thought was, “No way! I can’t possibly get up in front of all these people and channel!” But I knew better than that, and I knew that it was now or never, so when my time came I stood up and allowed Brother John to tell my own story of shame, reunion, and transformation. It was my first time channeling before a live audience, and when I finished I knew that a profound integration had happened within me. And, though many of the people thanked me and told me that it had opened something up within them too, I owe the people of The Celebration a debt of gratitude for giving me the opportunity to reclaim another part of me.
The recording quality of Brother John’s talk is not great, and I don’t have time right now to manually transcribe it, but you can listen to it here. The introduction is by my good friend Ken Shaw, who was there five hundred years ago and was one of the few who stood by me in that time. Thank you Ken, and thank you to everyone at The Celebration!
Wow. How do you know it’s been a busy year? When you go to post a New Year message on your blog and discover that your Merry Christmas message from a year ago is still in the Recent Posts list!
It has indeed been a busy and amazing year, and through it all my soul and I have been coming closer and closer together. I’ve been allowing my soul to speak more and more, with forty four lessons now on our Creatorship 101 website, and more to come.
But for a few weeks now they hadn’t been coming, and I could tell that I needed to find a new place within me. That happens as one’s soul comes in closer, for suddenly the connection is different and you have to find it in a new place. It feels disconcerting, like you’ve lost the connection, but in reality you are connected more closely than ever.
So, a couple days ago I sat down with my recorder and breathed, and set aside any ideas of what topic we should address or even of what we would do with what came, and invited my soul to speak. The message that came surprised me. It was somehow different from past messages, deeper, and not at all what I expected. When I finished I knew it was the next Creatorship lesson, but also that it was more than that, and that it needed to be shared here as well.
And so without further ado, click here to read or listen to a very special message from my soul, and a call for reunion on behalf of your soul as well.
During the Awakening Masters class last Thursday someone asked if we would be talking about shadow. I assured her that it’s one of the most important topics we have, and we would certainly be addressing it in future classes.
This morning that deeper part of me wanted to speak again, and the following is what came. Continue reading »
Some days, I’m better able to trust that everything is unfolding in divine order – my soul’s order. Sometimes, it feels like my soul is keeping a secret from me. I can sense what’s what but I can never be sure. Certainly, assurances are all fake. It’s my mind’s desperate attempt to keep some semblance of control over life. Ha. What do I identify with when the ground beneath me keeps shifting? When I take the 10,000 foot view, I can see how I have become more comfortable in the seeming void. While I can see an outline of a path, there are so many potential turns with new paths, it is impossible to plan very far into the future. This leaves only the now moment. A moment where I am free to choose to be anything I can imagine. Continue reading »
It’s easy to feel that we are in a transformational era. Old energies, structures, and ways of being are leaving, as they no longer serve consciousness. Some believe we are going to ascend into Oneness again. I believe there is no going back. Instead, while we’ll all remain connected, we are expanding into our individual Oneness or personal Sovereignty. This time is marked by:
The blending of the Human self with our Divinity
Integrating all the aspects of ourselves, welcoming them home in order to bring our whole being to this NOW moment, full power to create
Seeing life as a series of potentials and knowing we are the Creators; choosing which potential to draw through
The changes we’re experiencing internally are difficult to articulate, differ from day to day, and mimic some common mental imbalances
Abrupt endings in many areas of our lives, because that which no longer serves our consciousness will go awayContinue reading »
All of me comes back together in this lifetime and I meld with my divinity, that’s the process many of us are experiencing as Ascension or Awakening. This process has stages which are somewhat decipherable at this point and are worth noting here. While I know that there really is nothing to “do” in this process, parts of me really like to feel like I’m contributing to my overall progress of integrating with my divinity, so some of my concepts are about “being” and some are about “doing.”Continue reading »
I want to report in on what I’m learning about the whole “mind lock” and games theme. First, I’ve made a personal commitment to journal on a regular basis. I realize that insights are somewhat fleeting if I don’t stop and absorb them. Truly I believe the whole point of looking into these patterns in our lives is to create greater awareness, to expand consciousness and then to appreciate the fact that we are constantly growing and changing. The changes are so small at times, we don’t realize that they add up to big differences. Just think about who you are today versus the person you were a year ago.Continue reading »
As angels, we came to visit Earth (to experience duality of all things) and we found ourselves involved in all kinds of human activities. Wanting to understand life in the 3D world, we listened to the conversations of people around us.
Some authority said the terrorists would destroy us. The news reported a great epidemic of illness. And someone who certainly knows explained in great detail that current financial hardships were certain to continue indefinitely, that no one was safe. We’ve heard there are not enough good-hearted people in the world and soon environmental catastrophe will end life as we know it on Earth.
We heard it so often, we began to wonder if these things might not be true and we could feel our angelic senses dim. Our divinity shriveled as we looked in the mirror and saw that we were dressed as human beings walking the Earth in fear, doubt, and uncertainty.Continue reading »