How to LOVE the Game of Lack

Even as I wrote my last post on How to Stop the Game of Lack, I knew I was missing something.  I could feel there was a deeper layer I hadn’t yet been able to grasp, and even as I wrote my list of dysfunctional beliefs that keep me loving the game, I could feel that I was missing the point.  There’s something even deeper than these I kept thinking, something that when I find it will make all of these irrelevant.  After a conversation with Mary Beth I finally saw what it was, and though I’ve barely scratched the surface so far, I’ll do my best to articulate it here.

It’s not just that we need to acknowledge that parts of us, albeit old, dysfunctional, and irrational parts of us, love the game of lack.  That’s an important first step, but while identifying those parts can help us understand the game a little, it can never set us free.  There are more aspects of us playing that game than we could identify in a hundred lifetimes, and anyway, trying to do so is just another way to try and stop the game; just another way of playing the game and keeping us stuck in it.

No, it’s not just about acknowledging that we love the game.  Even more, it is about choosing to love the game.

What?  I’m supposed to love the game of lack?  Absolutely, if you want to be free.

But won’t loving it make it bigger?  No.  Loving it will stop the battle inside you, and that will release you from your need to play the game.

You see, the game is your own creation.  In a sense it is a part of you, and at the very least it represents some very important parts of you that have chosen it.  A house divided against itself cannot stand, and when you reject a part of yourself, or one of your own creations, it sets up an inner battle that will eat you up from the inside out.  That’s how the game started, and the more you fight it, the more intense you make it.  When you love it instead, the battle stops and you and your creation are both set free.  Then everything transforms.

So how does one love the game of lack?

Well, that’s the sixty-four-million-dollar question that I’ll be exploring this year.  What I know so far is this:

The first thing I have to do is make the choice.  I choose that, from this day forward, whenever I notice myself getting frustrated and pissed off about not having enough money, I am going to stop and take a breath, and redirect that energy into celebrating what a powerful creator I am to have created such an amazing experience of lack in a universe where abundance is my natural state!

Then I have to mean it, and follow through on it.  I have to find a way to really truly passionately celebrate this creation of mine that I have so hated, for only then can I truly set it free and create something new.

Perhaps an even more direct—and less mental—way is to recognize that I wouldn’t be playing the game if I didn’t already love playing it, and to get in touch with that part of me and allow it to come to the fore.

I’m sure there are many more layers to all of this, and I’ll be sharing more here as I discover them.  What’s your take?  What experiences have you had in learning to love those parts of yourself that you so much want to hate?